Tuesday, June 16, 2009

Sigh

I've been feeling a little out of sorts the past couple of days. My moods swings have been uncontrollable and not normal. I usually am pretty calm and not much causes me to get angry. I also tend to pick my battles. Yet, Sunday night, Darren woke me up with a question and then I wasn't able to get answer it. The keyboard banged really loud and I thought he was upset because I couldn't help and I sat up in bed, through my book and yelled asking what his problem was. I Don't know if it had to do with I was still sleeping a bit but I scared myself. I think there has been only one time previous that I have ever raised my voice towards him.... The funny thing was we had a spectacular Sunday day...

Yesterday I was feeling off... I was going through the motions of the day but I was there. I usually love grocery shopping and have a list ready, whether in my head or on paper, I had nothing yesterday (except I knew we needed apples and the fridge was empty). We did get through the store with things we needed. Darren even noticed I was off.

When we got home, he banned me from the kitchen. (Dishes needed to be done and supper needed to be made) I went outside and planted my flowers. It was nice to get it done and the three flower beds look pretty good. I just need to remember to water them. Supper was good and grateful for Darren for cooking because I probably wouldn't have eat otherwise.

I've been told by a couple of people that I should get my blood tested because I might be low on some vitamins.

I haven't been really good with watching what I am eating. I'm not snacking much but not choosing the most healthiest options. I have to watch the carbs and eat more fruits and veggies. I think I'll grill the fish that I have in the fridge for lunch today and eat my left over fruit I had for breakfast.

Goals today:
1) go for a walk
2) limit salt and carbs
3) more water

Sometimes your joy is the source of your smile, but sometimes your smile can be the source of your joy.
Thich Nhat Hanh

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